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WHO ARE YOU?

WHO ARE YOU?
What part of you did you loose to get here?
Dawn M Cheney     

What if a stranger asked you, “Who are you and what part of you did you loose to be you? Would you know what they were talking about? What would you say? What would your answer be?

The graduate that got the best seat on the Senate floor. The clown in the back of the room now President of his own multi million dollar company? The jock now hooked on drugs and supporting four kids. The cheer leader that came down with Parkinson’s Disease and lives on charity? The girl everyone called a “Geek” who is now a top scientist at Boeing?

Who do you think you are? What did you want to become? What did it cost you to get where you are today?

Oh I don’t mean monetarily. That would be too easy an answer. No, no, no. I want you to take a long time and really think about what these questions mean. Dig deep inside you. Look in all the dark corners of your heart and mind. Cry, weep, jump for joy, stamp your feet in rage, overflow with love and pull You out of the box.

What did it cost You to be who you are today? What price did You pay in your heart, mind, body and soul to step into the roll you play today? What did you give up of You? Not money, not places, not show and tell. That’s not permanent. I mean the You, inside You.

Where are You today? The who You wanted to be; singer, dancer, musician, artist, landscape architect, free lance journalist, tour guide, traveler, all curled up reading in silence, at peace. What happened? What did you loose of You to get here?

We all give up something of ourselves with every relationship we join in to, whether it be family, friends, co workers, acquaintances or just passing strangers. We compromise our personalities, our integrity, our principles, our dreams, our self esteem, ourselves, in order to fit into the situation, the mold. To fit in the box.

Maybe at first we jump back out of those boxes and back into being Ourselves. But if we visit the same type of boxes often enough, we have to give something of us away to stay there. Otherwise we don’t fit in the box with the others and we’ll feel alienated, unwanted. We have to feel wanted to belong. It’s supposed to be that way. It’s human.

We may even try on several different kinds of boxes giving something of Us away to each box in order to belong. You like bicycling because it gives you freedom and silence to think, but Box One doesn’t like that idea at all. So you give up bicycling in Box One, even though you gain weight and feel confined, contained.

Box Two likes to bowl and you don’t because you think it’s a boring and mindless game. Your new girlfriend likes to bowl though. So you start bowling in order to fit in while continually stuffing the feeling down inside of how dumb and boring a game it is. How do You handle that emotion? What happened to the time to do what You liked to do? Why did you give You away?

Box Three goes to plays and concerts twice a month, but you don’t have that kind of budget. You pretend you can afford it by secretly over extending your credit cards, thus going into debt in order to keep up with Box Three. Your fiances parents are in Box three. You haven’t told your fiance either. Why? What are you missing of You that makes this disastrous step necessary?

And so it goes on and on until you fit in to so many different boxes that You no longer have any time at all to bicycle and you’re gaining lots of weight. You drink like a fish because you hate bowling. You also don’t know how you’re going to pay the rent this month because of all the overdrafts and credit card bills from going to all of the plays and concerts.

Who have you become? Where are You? What did you loose of You to get here? Can you find You again? Oh the questions to ponder on these few questions.

These are the questions I’m sorting through me to answer about myself now. I’m just as confused as you are where I went in order to get here. I thought I had accomplished my healing quite successfully and smuggley confirmed that to myself. Of course, I knew I had more to learn. We always do.

But nothing prepared me for 180 degree turn back to the beginning. Yet that is where I feel I am; I need to be. There is no other place to find the answers I’m seeking inside me and in my life today.

I slammed to a halt last month, June 2019. I canceled my website, dismembered my known structure of my business, and I feel freer than I have in years. I still do have my business, my existing clients and I see new clients, but I’m different now. Freer inside somehow.

Over the last couple of years I had been feeling artificial, inauthentic, even a phony to myself. Yes I can do what my website and business cards say. I have the training, the skills, the experience and I’m good at what I do. I have lots of positive results to show for my efforts. I just didn’t include Me in there.

It’s hard to explain to most people. My friends get it. That’s all that counts really. I’m hoping you’ll get it for you too.

I had the appropriately prescribed and worded website me. Of course, the right combination of social media me. The semi perfect fit in the Business Box me. But I wasn’t there. Not the me of who I am.

My soul was dying, I was dying inside, I was hollow. My feet dragged when I walked, my enthusiasm waned at doing marketing and my heart was sad. I couldn’t, didn’t, speak of who I really was, what my true skills really were, how it all worked together for better health. I made it fit in the Right Business Box so I could be recognized among others doing the same work.

I didn’t talk about the shamanic parts of me, the Sekhem parts of me, the Medicine Wheel part of me. I wasn’t real. Ten years ago Reiki is the only thing that stuck out in people’s mind and that was the appropriate thing to market to get business. That is all wonderful.

My friends have been encouraging me for years to talk about the other parts of me, but when I did it was like people went blank. They had no idea what I was talking about.   So to fit in the box I didn’t try to explain. I quit talking about that part of me.

The Right Business Box never worked for me. I was never able to get a steady business going. It has never grown. Competition is not my way. My heart works differently, I believe differently. So I chose, “Whoever needs me, will find me.”

But I didn’t let go of the Right Business Box me that says, “You have to write this way, and do this this way and do that that way.”, because that’s they way it’s done if you want clients and success.

I forgot the part I had been told by psychic readers everywhere starting 25 years ago until I left Cincinnati eighteen yrs ago. “You’re work is different and you will have to find your own way. You will not be the healer that has multiple clients a day 5 days a week. You may have to find your own way to make money because you won’t fit in the traditional way.”

Ten years after healing my brain injury and heart attack Reiki and healing were all I knew. I had just lived it by healing myself for 10 years straight. My earlier training starting in 1995 was the beginning of an incredible healing and learning experience for me when I could find no medical help after my brain injury and heart attack in early 2002. I wanted to share my knowledge and abilities with clients and through teaching. I had multiple trials and errors along that journey to remind me of what I learned.

What I created was what others expected to be created. Not who I am. I tried, in words and ideas and I have taught an incredible number of people whose lives have been touched by the information. And I am grateful to them, to my friends, to all my clients and all those I have learned from for decades. We are all each others teachers, we are one.

I played the game long enough though. Now I am finding Me now.

This is what I leave You with. May you find You.

PEACE & BLESSINGS
DAWN

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Going Within

 

Awaken To Your Dream

Awaken To Your Dream  (above -Dawn’s  Healing Card AWAKEN)

GOING WITHIN

We seek outside ourselves for answers that can really only be found by going within us.  The wisdom of the ages is found inside each and every one of us here on earth.  The journey to go within can seem very frightening at the beginning.  It’s so expansive and there is no instruction book explaining exactly how every step will look along the way, like a scientific experiment with guaranteed results every time.  Only hints and recommendations of what happened to this person or that person and what they felt or did while at the same time telling you to trust that it will work for you too.

That’s where the BIG leap of faith comes in.  Spirit will push the door open giving you opportunities to step into something new or different.  When the time is right for you, you will take those first steps into the doorway in a leap of faith that you may not even believe in.  You will do it because it “feels” like something you are supposed to be doing and it “feels” right for you.  Your GUT, your intuition, your knowing, will KNOW that it is the right thing to do, and that’s all you have to worry about to get started on the journey within you.

Along the way you will discover that you do have guideposts inside you from your life experience, from books you’ve read, and people you’ve talked to that point you in the right direction.  When you get stuck you’ll find that the right people will show up, the right books will come your way or just the right information will land in front of you to help you to the next step.

It’s not about perfection or doing everything the books say to do.  It’s about how you follow YOUR intuition and knowingness inside you.  It’s all about pure TRUST in yourself and Spirit.  How you walk it your way.  It’s about a leap of faith that you DO know what you’re doing, even if you don’t.  You just know you have to do it for YOU.

Below Channeled by Dawn Cheney

Wisdom is not playing one card against the other. 

Wisdom is holding your cards into the unknown and letting go of the outcome. 

Spiritual Paths And Change

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The spiritual path is about change, change in your life, changed in who you are, and sometimes change in the direction of your life.  It is something that initiates itself when you have reached a point in your life when you are ready for it, whether you know it or not.  It can be a gentle nudge, a solid push, or an absolute kick in the behind to jar you and get you going.

You begin to look around and take interest in life differently.  Subjects you may have wanted to study, classes you may have wanted to take or things that you never have dreamed would interest you will find their way mysteriously into your life.  And you’ll decide to explore one or all of them. That’s one of the changes that opens the door to let spirit in and a new adventure begin into who you really are inside.

If you should hear a mysterious knocking at your conscience door, take a chance and open it slowly at your own pace.  Be sure to ask if it is the light and truth of Spirit and in alignment with your highest and best good, as well as all those concerned.  Then gather your strength within you and step into the newness of what it brings you, thus allowing the healing journey to begin or continue.

Blessings and love to you all.

STUCK

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Stuck on a mountain and

No where to go.

Which way is the circle?

Which way is the snow?

The ice is all melting

And I’ve nowhere to go.

Help me I’m falling and

I need your help too.

Help me!  My habitat is

Falling into the sea.

And all I have with me is

This tiny iceberg and me.

WHEN IT FEELS LIKE THERE IS NOTHING TO HANG ONTO, HANG ON TO YOURSELF AND BREATH.  There is always a path forward.  We just need to slow down and take time to listen inside for the guidance of what to do next.  And sometimes that means just standing still waiting for the changes in yourself and others to catch up.  It’s OK to stand still.  It’s OK to be stuck.  It’s OK to be lost.  That just means your are exactly where you need to be so you can learn to listen inside better.

Breath slowly and deeply and wait.  Trust that the answer(s) will come when you and the universe are ready to hear them.  And know that you are safe and on the right path.  The light and truth of spirit are guiding you in all things.

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WINTER HOLIDAY SEASON SPINS BELIEFS

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The strength of winter is surrounding us as we step into the Holiday Season at the end of one year and beginning of a new one.  But this year there is an edge to it.  Our beliefs and lives have been placed in sort of a spin, whirling around waiting to learn what the government decision will be for a new National budget just before the year ends, how will the new health care policies really effect us, what will these new weather patterns bring the world next as we read about one major storm and disaster after another and so much more.

It is probably one of the most unstable times in our history pertaining to all issues in our lives.  And yet, how appropriate for these challenges to be facing us at this time of year, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years.

More than ever, this year we will be given the opportunity to really push our belief systems on faith, trust, love, and gratefulness.  More than ever we will have to confront our own fears and pressures as we try to fulfill our own and others expectations for the season.  What do we really believe?  What do we really trust in?  How grateful and loving are we really?  How much of it is wrapped in money?

The past few years have taught many of us more about the true value of life as we have faced devastating losses from the economy, job losses and natural disasters.  Now again this year as began we moving towards recovery, only to find more obstacles in our way, we will be asked to draw upon the very bare bones of our beliefs and graces.  What do we believe and trust?

The true meaning of Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years were to celebrate people, life, birth, relationships and hope.  They were created with faith and love towards others and themselves, joining different cultures and beliefs together in hope of a greater and better future for all concerned.

They did not center on how big of a gift they could give or even how many; not how much money they did or didn’t spend on who for what.  It wasn’t about who had what and who didn’t.

It was about the gift of themselves to each other in sharing and listening, reaching out to understand and celebrate the likenesses and differences they had.  To celebrate the newness of what they were creating together from the work they had done to get that far.

Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years all center on the births of new ways of thinking and being and the plans of how to change in the future to achieve those goals.  And these will be our same challenges this year as we are drawn back into our basics (memories, fears, beliefs, jealousies, joys, and pains).  We will be reaching into our own souls to find a way to make the holidays ring in joy and merriment.

Who are we really doing it for and why?  What really counts in our lives?  Why are we so caught up in what others think about us that we go broke trying to impress and please everyone else instead of really just enjoying each other and celebrating the true meaning of the holiday season.  What do we really believe and trust and what and who do we believe in?  Ourselves should be part of that answer and each of us will fill in the blanks with the rest.

Many blessings to all of you and all the various beliefs and faiths and holidays you all have and celebrate.  From me, I wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving, a very Merry Christmas and a wonderful and better New Year.  Blessings, Dawn

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