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WHO ARE YOU?

WHO ARE YOU?
What part of you did you loose to get here?
Dawn M Cheney     

What if a stranger asked you, “Who are you and what part of you did you loose to be you? Would you know what they were talking about? What would you say? What would your answer be?

The graduate that got the best seat on the Senate floor. The clown in the back of the room now President of his own multi million dollar company? The jock now hooked on drugs and supporting four kids. The cheer leader that came down with Parkinson’s Disease and lives on charity? The girl everyone called a “Geek” who is now a top scientist at Boeing?

Who do you think you are? What did you want to become? What did it cost you to get where you are today?

Oh I don’t mean monetarily. That would be too easy an answer. No, no, no. I want you to take a long time and really think about what these questions mean. Dig deep inside you. Look in all the dark corners of your heart and mind. Cry, weep, jump for joy, stamp your feet in rage, overflow with love and pull You out of the box.

What did it cost You to be who you are today? What price did You pay in your heart, mind, body and soul to step into the roll you play today? What did you give up of You? Not money, not places, not show and tell. That’s not permanent. I mean the You, inside You.

Where are You today? The who You wanted to be; singer, dancer, musician, artist, landscape architect, free lance journalist, tour guide, traveler, all curled up reading in silence, at peace. What happened? What did you loose of You to get here?

We all give up something of ourselves with every relationship we join in to, whether it be family, friends, co workers, acquaintances or just passing strangers. We compromise our personalities, our integrity, our principles, our dreams, our self esteem, ourselves, in order to fit into the situation, the mold. To fit in the box.

Maybe at first we jump back out of those boxes and back into being Ourselves. But if we visit the same type of boxes often enough, we have to give something of us away to stay there. Otherwise we don’t fit in the box with the others and we’ll feel alienated, unwanted. We have to feel wanted to belong. It’s supposed to be that way. It’s human.

We may even try on several different kinds of boxes giving something of Us away to each box in order to belong. You like bicycling because it gives you freedom and silence to think, but Box One doesn’t like that idea at all. So you give up bicycling in Box One, even though you gain weight and feel confined, contained.

Box Two likes to bowl and you don’t because you think it’s a boring and mindless game. Your new girlfriend likes to bowl though. So you start bowling in order to fit in while continually stuffing the feeling down inside of how dumb and boring a game it is. How do You handle that emotion? What happened to the time to do what You liked to do? Why did you give You away?

Box Three goes to plays and concerts twice a month, but you don’t have that kind of budget. You pretend you can afford it by secretly over extending your credit cards, thus going into debt in order to keep up with Box Three. Your fiances parents are in Box three. You haven’t told your fiance either. Why? What are you missing of You that makes this disastrous step necessary?

And so it goes on and on until you fit in to so many different boxes that You no longer have any time at all to bicycle and you’re gaining lots of weight. You drink like a fish because you hate bowling. You also don’t know how you’re going to pay the rent this month because of all the overdrafts and credit card bills from going to all of the plays and concerts.

Who have you become? Where are You? What did you loose of You to get here? Can you find You again? Oh the questions to ponder on these few questions.

These are the questions I’m sorting through me to answer about myself now. I’m just as confused as you are where I went in order to get here. I thought I had accomplished my healing quite successfully and smuggley confirmed that to myself. Of course, I knew I had more to learn. We always do.

But nothing prepared me for 180 degree turn back to the beginning. Yet that is where I feel I am; I need to be. There is no other place to find the answers I’m seeking inside me and in my life today.

I slammed to a halt last month, June 2019. I canceled my website, dismembered my known structure of my business, and I feel freer than I have in years. I still do have my business, my existing clients and I see new clients, but I’m different now. Freer inside somehow.

Over the last couple of years I had been feeling artificial, inauthentic, even a phony to myself. Yes I can do what my website and business cards say. I have the training, the skills, the experience and I’m good at what I do. I have lots of positive results to show for my efforts. I just didn’t include Me in there.

It’s hard to explain to most people. My friends get it. That’s all that counts really. I’m hoping you’ll get it for you too.

I had the appropriately prescribed and worded website me. Of course, the right combination of social media me. The semi perfect fit in the Business Box me. But I wasn’t there. Not the me of who I am.

My soul was dying, I was dying inside, I was hollow. My feet dragged when I walked, my enthusiasm waned at doing marketing and my heart was sad. I couldn’t, didn’t, speak of who I really was, what my true skills really were, how it all worked together for better health. I made it fit in the Right Business Box so I could be recognized among others doing the same work.

I didn’t talk about the shamanic parts of me, the Sekhem parts of me, the Medicine Wheel part of me. I wasn’t real. Ten years ago Reiki is the only thing that stuck out in people’s mind and that was the appropriate thing to market to get business. That is all wonderful.

My friends have been encouraging me for years to talk about the other parts of me, but when I did it was like people went blank. They had no idea what I was talking about.   So to fit in the box I didn’t try to explain. I quit talking about that part of me.

The Right Business Box never worked for me. I was never able to get a steady business going. It has never grown. Competition is not my way. My heart works differently, I believe differently. So I chose, “Whoever needs me, will find me.”

But I didn’t let go of the Right Business Box me that says, “You have to write this way, and do this this way and do that that way.”, because that’s they way it’s done if you want clients and success.

I forgot the part I had been told by psychic readers everywhere starting 25 years ago until I left Cincinnati eighteen yrs ago. “You’re work is different and you will have to find your own way. You will not be the healer that has multiple clients a day 5 days a week. You may have to find your own way to make money because you won’t fit in the traditional way.”

Ten years after healing my brain injury and heart attack Reiki and healing were all I knew. I had just lived it by healing myself for 10 years straight. My earlier training starting in 1995 was the beginning of an incredible healing and learning experience for me when I could find no medical help after my brain injury and heart attack in early 2002. I wanted to share my knowledge and abilities with clients and through teaching. I had multiple trials and errors along that journey to remind me of what I learned.

What I created was what others expected to be created. Not who I am. I tried, in words and ideas and I have taught an incredible number of people whose lives have been touched by the information. And I am grateful to them, to my friends, to all my clients and all those I have learned from for decades. We are all each others teachers, we are one.

I played the game long enough though. Now I am finding Me now.

This is what I leave You with. May you find You.

PEACE & BLESSINGS
DAWN

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Going Within

 

Awaken To Your Dream

Awaken To Your Dream  (above -Dawn’s  Healing Card AWAKEN)

GOING WITHIN

We seek outside ourselves for answers that can really only be found by going within us.  The wisdom of the ages is found inside each and every one of us here on earth.  The journey to go within can seem very frightening at the beginning.  It’s so expansive and there is no instruction book explaining exactly how every step will look along the way, like a scientific experiment with guaranteed results every time.  Only hints and recommendations of what happened to this person or that person and what they felt or did while at the same time telling you to trust that it will work for you too.

That’s where the BIG leap of faith comes in.  Spirit will push the door open giving you opportunities to step into something new or different.  When the time is right for you, you will take those first steps into the doorway in a leap of faith that you may not even believe in.  You will do it because it “feels” like something you are supposed to be doing and it “feels” right for you.  Your GUT, your intuition, your knowing, will KNOW that it is the right thing to do, and that’s all you have to worry about to get started on the journey within you.

Along the way you will discover that you do have guideposts inside you from your life experience, from books you’ve read, and people you’ve talked to that point you in the right direction.  When you get stuck you’ll find that the right people will show up, the right books will come your way or just the right information will land in front of you to help you to the next step.

It’s not about perfection or doing everything the books say to do.  It’s about how you follow YOUR intuition and knowingness inside you.  It’s all about pure TRUST in yourself and Spirit.  How you walk it your way.  It’s about a leap of faith that you DO know what you’re doing, even if you don’t.  You just know you have to do it for YOU.

Below Channeled by Dawn Cheney

Wisdom is not playing one card against the other. 

Wisdom is holding your cards into the unknown and letting go of the outcome. 

BLANK AND EMPTY

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Blank and empty my mind staring at you there, flat white outlined page on the screen. How we look alike at this point and time. And yet I feel your challenge directed at me just as mine is at you, “Go ahead, write.”

We balance each other up and poke each other with keystroke hits and black marks pretending to be doing something creative. Who’s going to give in first? Will you mark your untouchable white surface first or will brilliance surface like bubbles in my mind and appear like magic on your page?

There is no choice here but to look away and grin inside myself, smart, satisfied that I have out smarted you again. I have won.

There it is. The marks upon the page and you haven’t even smudged your surface to make a wave or move. I feel superior, elated that I have made these marks upon your contours and you haven’t thought of your first ripple yet. I am smug.

But then You ask, “But who made those marks, you or I?”

“Well I did, of course.” I exclaim in all my expanded righteousness.

“Are you sure?” You ask with such a mark of reflection in Your voice that I hesitate to adhere to Your remarks.

But I must not be put off. “Well, absolutely. Who else would have the aptitude to put such words to Your surface than me? You can’t mean to think it was You. You haven’t even moved yet.

In soft reverberating tones You blow the challenge my way. “And how did they come upon my surface if not by me?”

“Surely not by You, ha. There is the matter of the keyboard on which I typed MY words and the software that interpreted MY keystrokes into MY intelligence and done all through the machine brain of the computer CPU. But I was the one who first created their original brilliance in front of me now.”

“Na ah, not so fast.” Your voice now rising in my ear like chimes out of sync. “Where did they come from in their origin?”

“From me,” I exclaim in a haughty might.

“I don’t think so my dear friend. How soon you forget where your inspiration came from. Where did you start? Go back to the beginning and think again,” this insolent white surface gleams in mock gesture as I smugly try not to listen.

“I dare say I started at the beginning sitting here staring at You, a blank white outline on a computer screen. Nothing more.”

“And the challenge you felt came from where to find these words you put on me?” You impertinently demand.

“Why from You, of course. We were in rare opposition I’d say to get things done. I won though, of course, in Your defeat.”

And again You demand, “And from what depths and to whose surface have they adhered from such challenge, which makes it whose origin?”

Flabbergasted I explode, “My word are on Your surface because I put them there!”

Calmly stating, You begin, “I am the one you brought your blank mind to, am I not? And I am the one to whose challenge you arose to put those words on my surface. Is that not right? And the marks were stroked on my surface by your fingers from you mind after great contemplation with my help. Is that not right?” And I am the one whose outline they could not have been seen on unless I was there in the first place. Is that not true?

In deflated exasperation I must concede, “Yes, that is true.”

With an imperceptible curl of its edges, as if one would put their hands on their hips in superior satisfaction, You softly whisper, “Touché”.   And with that one word my computer goes inexplicably dead.  And the winner is?

COMMITMENT TO YOURSELF

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I don’t know about you, but I find one of the hardest things to do in my life is to commit to myself.  I mean really commit to what I want to do in my life and where I want to go.  A successful business, clients, a home, security, and all the things we’re told are available to everyone.  Does any of this sound a little familiar to anyone else out there?  Finding yourself side tracked and giving excuses as to the whys and why nots, and there go those commitments right out the window.

So what makes it so hard to hold on to those things we want most in our lives, plus taking the action to really go for them?  Self esteem, fear, old wounds, what other people will think of us; these are all huge factors in the quest for ourselves and what we want in our lives.  These come from learned patterning out of our childhood and adult experiences as well as many of our interpretations of those experiences.

One simple tool to help you begin to turn those commitments into reality is meditation.  Through meditation you can begin to learn more about who you really are inside yourself and how to heal and/or change any  misconceptions you find in your life.  It helps gives you choices as to how to see the world and yourself in it.

One of the most basic and simple meditation is to take just a few minutes to sit down, slow your mind down and follow your breath.  By taking just even one to two minutes to do this it will work wonders on the next course of action in your day.

Tell your brain and all those thoughts running through it not to worry, you will get to that great big list of things to do in just a minute or two.  Assure it you will not forget, because it won’t let you.  Trust me.  But for just these brief minutes, you can let go and relax.  In a relaxed state we can recollect our own energy back into ourselves by concentrating on our breathing.

Take note of your breath going in and out.  Listen to it, feel it, hear it, follow it as it expands your lungs on the inhalation and visualize all tension and heaviness flowing out of you as you breath out on your exhalation.  Feel your muscles relax with each breath as you continue to pay attention to your breath.

After a minute or two, or more, allow your awareness to recognize the noises and movements around you and return to what you were doing.  You should feel more relaxed, clear-headed and ready to take on the world again.  This one simple tool can help you re-think your priorities, make better decisions, and handle life better, as well introduce you to the advantages and benefits of meditation as a way of reshaping your life and the choices in it.  You are also teach your mind and body how to prepare for deeper, longer meditations in the future.

SMILE AT YOURSELF

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Have you ever just smiled at yourself in the mirror and found it could make you feel better or even laugh?  Have you ever wondered why you feel so much better when you smile than when you frown?  Well that is because a smile actually has physical effects on your entire body, mind and emotions.  Decades of research have been done on that one little concept of a smile and it’s effects on our health.

A smile can lower your heart rate and relax your body which helps to reduce stress.  It’s like getting healthy without working hard at it.  What could be better than that?  And a smile can release endorphins that help to reduce pain which in turn can make you feel better and put you in a better mood as well.  And to top it all off, when you smile it makes you look younger.  It can take years off of your appearance with just one bright shining smile on your face.  (http://www.sunwarrior.com/news/15-health-benefits-of-smiling/)

But what about smiling inside of your body as well?  For those who may not be familiar with it I would like to introduce a healing system of the Microcosmic Orbit taught by Mantak Chia and Maneewan Chia in their book AWAKEN HEALING LIGHT OF THE TAO.  One of the exercises is an ancient Taoist meditation of smiling at your organs in order to help release negative and stressed emotions  in order to bring healing to your entire being.  It is an amazing process of change and reform in your life.  It can change your anger into compassion, your jealousy into awareness of self, and so much more all in a simple inner smile.

Throughout the millenniums of various cultural ways of healing, the belief in energetic healing is prevalent across the world.  One of the concepts in some of these systems is that each organ corresponds to positive and negative emotions and thought forms; i.e., the liver is associated with the negative emotion of anger and it’s positive aspect corresponds to kindness.  The functioning and health of the eyes relates to the liver as well.  Through the Inner Smile Meditation one is able to help get in touch with these emotions plus help improve your eye health.

In this time sensitive world today we need to take time and space for these small inner moments of healing.  The Inner Smile can take as short a time as a moment or as long as an hour.  It’s all up to you.  The whole point of it is to help yourself improve your life.  As you change you, so to the world around you will change.  Remember, You are the difference. 

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